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My braces are gone! After three years! It feels so strange in my mouth now, but I feel great having my old smile again! I took three tests today and I was so unprepared and sick, coughing several times when it was supposed to be quiet. Sorry about that. I must have bothered quite a few classmates. Well, it feels good having all the tests done now. Now I can relax a little bit and recharge from my cold. This Sunday I and my friend will perform at a church again. It’s just a little thing that our music teacher wanted us to do. I hope I can play my Debussy piano solo properly this time. It was a bit messy when I played it at the promotion tour a couple of weeks ago. And I had my singing lesson yesterday. Actually I had two lessons though I had a bad throat, but it went quite well and I got two classical songs as homework. "Caro mio ben" and "Lascia ch'io pianga - Händel". Well, now I’m off to look at some Korean and Japanese drama episodes. Shibatora (Teppei! <3) Beethoven Virus, Boys over flowers and Taiyou no uta ;D Take care!
//much love, Chimy
Hi guys. Sorry for the major lack of update. I’m not gonna come with a bunch of excuses so I’ll just leave it with a note that I haven’t had the energy to keep it up, sorry about that. Anyway, since I have my one week vacation now I’ll at least update y’all with something new. Like that I’ve bought a new dress that I thought would fit well for the Christmas concert next month.
I’m ordering dresses far ahead of the occasion due to a past experience receiving my dress two days after my junior high graduation. Gosh, I must seem really vain and superficial. I’m not really like that, or what if I may have become… >_< Well, it was not expensive at all so I couldn't resist.
Other than that, I feel so healthy!! Even though I should be dying of stress since I have much more concerts, projects and school work to keep on fighting with this term, I feel as if I’ve gained much more control over myself when I started training. I have dance practices about 4 times a week. Street/hiphop, oriental belly dancing and dancehall two times a week. It feels great to move your body this much, and it has given me a colorful everyday life. Also it makes me concentrate on one thing at the time, while relaxing my brain from all the other things I have to deal with. I’m also attempting to begin with boxing. I have missed practicing martial arts for so long! Releasing your anger and explosion to decrease your temper on each practice makes me feel so great! But I haven’t dared going to the new club since it is located in an alley in an area I’m not quite familiar with. Well, my previous club was located underground so it was quite dreadful going there the first few weeks too. I guess I’ll get used to it going to the new one. It’s just so dark outside nowadays, 6 o’clock in the evening…
Anyway, what more is there to say? I’ve been addicted to facebook >_< Not good, it's unnecessarily taking a lot of my time. But it’s fun for some reason and there’s always updates that you can’t escape the temptation to read about. *going back to facebook to watch the updates though I’ve already been there like 20 minutes ago* Okay, there was nothing interesting. Umm… yeah, I and my family are really doing everything we can to find a new home. We can’t stay here any longer. My neighbors are making me uncomfortable so I don’t feel any peacefulness at home anymore. As if home ever been peaceful =_='' I’m still sharing room with my little sister, and we can hear every nasty noise from the toilet of our neighbor living next door. It’s really not a nice experience and since we hear other private stuff too that is not very pleasant when you’re going to sleep makes it even worse… Whatsoever, I want to watch a lot of movies that’s airing on the cinema for the moment. But if I went watching all of them all my money would be burnt up in an instant. Fame, Up, This is it, New moon, Paranormal activity, Ponyo… Jeez, why all the good movies on the same time?
That was a bit of the stuff going on here. Hope my next update won't be as slow as this one ;D
//much love, Chimy
I’m ordering dresses far ahead of the occasion due to a past experience receiving my dress two days after my junior high graduation. Gosh, I must seem really vain and superficial. I’m not really like that, or what if I may have become… >_< Well, it was not expensive at all so I couldn't resist.
Other than that, I feel so healthy!! Even though I should be dying of stress since I have much more concerts, projects and school work to keep on fighting with this term, I feel as if I’ve gained much more control over myself when I started training. I have dance practices about 4 times a week. Street/hiphop, oriental belly dancing and dancehall two times a week. It feels great to move your body this much, and it has given me a colorful everyday life. Also it makes me concentrate on one thing at the time, while relaxing my brain from all the other things I have to deal with. I’m also attempting to begin with boxing. I have missed practicing martial arts for so long! Releasing your anger and explosion to decrease your temper on each practice makes me feel so great! But I haven’t dared going to the new club since it is located in an alley in an area I’m not quite familiar with. Well, my previous club was located underground so it was quite dreadful going there the first few weeks too. I guess I’ll get used to it going to the new one. It’s just so dark outside nowadays, 6 o’clock in the evening…
Anyway, what more is there to say? I’ve been addicted to facebook >_< Not good, it's unnecessarily taking a lot of my time. But it’s fun for some reason and there’s always updates that you can’t escape the temptation to read about. *going back to facebook to watch the updates though I’ve already been there like 20 minutes ago* Okay, there was nothing interesting. Umm… yeah, I and my family are really doing everything we can to find a new home. We can’t stay here any longer. My neighbors are making me uncomfortable so I don’t feel any peacefulness at home anymore. As if home ever been peaceful =_='' I’m still sharing room with my little sister, and we can hear every nasty noise from the toilet of our neighbor living next door. It’s really not a nice experience and since we hear other private stuff too that is not very pleasant when you’re going to sleep makes it even worse… Whatsoever, I want to watch a lot of movies that’s airing on the cinema for the moment. But if I went watching all of them all my money would be burnt up in an instant. Fame, Up, This is it, New moon, Paranormal activity, Ponyo… Jeez, why all the good movies on the same time?
That was a bit of the stuff going on here. Hope my next update won't be as slow as this one ;D
//much love, Chimy
I never really felt this way...
until I finally saw this...
Like reality just hit me...
it stings so bad in my heart
If it would happen...
A piece of my dream would die together with you
I love you, please stay strong
//love, Chimy
I guess all of the Big Bang fans out there know about Dae Sung’s terrible accident. I was so sad hearing about it since I just recently started to love and support Big Bang. I’m also happy that the surgery for dear Dae Sung went well and that he’ll probably be back on his legs in a couple of weeks. I really hope he won’t rush it because of his amazing devotion to his job.
Many of us don’t want to see you in pain. I wish you a speedy recovery Dae Sung. Your fans love you.
And I’m amazed at myself for finally making my lil’ sister to like kpop thanks to you. Haha. 
D-LITE, Hwaiting! <3
//much love ,Chimy
I’m so stressed out. If I don’t make it, I would feel like a piece of me dying. The feeling of hopelessness will take all the energy I have left. I can’t take it anymore. So many years have passed already. The feeling of embarrassment grows. The pressure hides in all corners. Why can’t I just face it? I’m not perfect, and I know I will never be. I shouldn’t work too hard. It doesn’t pay off in the end if I don’t enjoy it anyway. And I’m not enjoying myself as I should do. I can’t talk with anyone. I can’t share what I feel. I’m just burying it alone. Now I must face the fact. Can’t I handle the pressure, then I will never stand a chance to conquer my dreams. Can’t I handle the stress, then I’m not fit for what I want to do in the future. Since pressure will be something I have to face in the future, I need to handle it somehow, when so many have already done it. This was what I always thought. But it’s not the same. I’m not enjoying my life. There are only the same old things happening; because I don’t want to break the safety of my habits in doing something in another way. My own perfectionist mind burdens me. But from now on I will only show you my true colors. I won’t ever hide my bad sides again. I’ll proudly show my flaws to the world to let them know that I’m not perfect and that I don’t feel bad or embarrassed about it. But you have to know that I will never be the girl you always thought I was. This is what I worry most about. How many people will see me differently now when I show the world who I really am? I think this is the reason I’ve been a chicken for so long. Some people will accept it, and some will hate it. And I know I’m going to risk losing a couple of relationships after this. But now, I decided. I won’t have this sensitive heart anymore. When I face them, at the worst moment my heart will be cold as ice, even if I have to manage this all alone. From now on I will let my music make my emotions alive and not just lay as a dead, unspeakable page inside my chest. I will never look down on the floor again. With the chin high, I will never let you look down on me again. I’m gonna make you proud. Whatever it takes to do so.
//much love, Chimy
//much love, Chimy